# 003 Of Elusive Perfection...

Sometimes, your best is just not enough to attain perfection. Kinda makes you wonder, were you never meant to? Just once? I've tried and tried, but it alway's seems to slip away. Elusive thing, perfection. I get so near and realise that I might as well have missed it by a mile. Really, sometimes I think its just one too many times. Sometimes, I feel like its pointless, this race that I run. And I've also thought of giving up, but that's just not me. I have a feeling that, no matter how long it takes, I'll always be there, trying.. I'll bide my time. It'll be mine yet.. Someday..

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I'm on my last book now for the Star reviews. The last time I went, I collected 6 books and am yet to go again. Planning to finish my last one by this weekend and go sometime next week. Chris wants to come along, we'll probably go catch Pan's Labyrinth together in KL since its refusing to come to Seremban and have a good time altogether. Looking forward to it. Will update.

CURRENT :

• MUSIC - YESTERDAY BY THE BEATLES
• READ - ASSASSIN"S TOUC H BY LAURA JOH ROWLAND
• MOOD - DETERMINED "Strong reasons make strong actions" -The Bard

# 002 Of life and odds and ends..

Getting exam results is one thing and all the hassle after is another. Applications, numerous visits to school, cracking your brain about what to apply for, where to apply to, weighing the odds of getting one or the other course/varsity.. Really, it can all drive even the most docile student up the wall. Plus the fact that one gets different kinds of advice from different sources (mind you, its all with the best of intentions) about different things, all you want to do is go hibernate somewhere deep underground (or as closest to that as you can get) where you're safe from all the chaos in the world. But obviously, that's not even remotely possible. So, on goes life and on you go with it.

I don't regret doing STPM. Not one bit. It was one of the best experiences in my life. I got to know many amazing people I would not have had the chance to otherwise. I got to study in a truly wonderful school in which I feel like I belonged. I had the chance to prove myself over and over again, especially to the biggest doubter, ME. I had the chance to make some true, 'for life' friends. And most importantly, I had the chance to do it my way. And so, I can only cross my fingers and hope for the best after this. Things will work out somehow, I'm sure. They always do.

I aim to take my cousin's advice pertaining varsity life - one which I'm looking forward to everyday.

1. Have fun (as much as I can get without crossing the line, you know : THE line)
2. Maintain a good CGPA
3. Learn something (outside the textbook, that is..about life and all its mysterious twists, turns and bends without relinquishing who I am)

Its like right now... I'm standing in the middle of nowhere. I look back and I've been walking a long, straight road all this while. And now, in front of me, there's a bend in the road. Try as hard as I may, I can't seem to get a look, not even a peek beyond that. The sand dunes are swirling and blinding my eyes. All I can do is bide my time, and wait...

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Heard this line in a movie and been thinking about it..Anybody with the answer?

A bird can fall in love with a fish, but where would they live?

CURRENT:

• MUSIC - HOW TO SAVE A LIFE BY FRAY
• READ - AS I WAS PASSING BY SRI DELIMA
• MOOD - ANXIOUS "Wilt thou be gone? It is not yet near day. It was the nightingale, and not the lark" -The Bard-

# 001 Of first posts...

The first post was supposed to be profound, significant, deep.

But, all I can think of now is the fact that my results are coming out tomorrow and no matter how much I fret, and worry and hope, it will all be over in a split second when I look at that piece of paper. Ironic. And this is all going to happen in less than 12 hours. Scary thought.

Right now, all I want to do is curl up in bed and drift off safely to slumber land. (It's the right weather too, just after a heavy rain.) But, I'm sure that I'll be tossing and turning all night.

Wish me luck...

CURRENT :

• MUSIC - TURN BY TRAVIS
• MOOD - RESTLESS "Rest, rest, perturbed spirit!" -The Bard-